February Already ?

 

This picture will continue to be the header of my blog until I'm able to establish some better habits. I originally wrote "good habits" but I'm trying to stay away from negativity - so things are not "bad" vs "good". How about good vs better for positivity !

On that note, I weighed myself during my lunch hour today. The scale read 268. What can I say ? I am so disappointed in myself. I've gained about a 100 pounds and now I am faced with the task of losing them AGAIN ! I can do it and I will do it, but I'm really mad at myself that I HAVE to do it ! 

No more McD, no more Taco Bell, no more candy, no more Pop Tarts. Yes, I have candy and Pop Tarts in the house but I won't be buying anymore. No more of anything that is outside the Nutrisystem guidelines. Tonight I will shower and brush my teeth before bed and make sure my fat ass is dressed before work starts tomorrow. My fat ass will be on the treadmill at noon and again after work. I have a brand new pair of Hoka's waiting for me, along with brand new exercise gear that should fit this fat ass. My fat ass will also be on the treadmill 2-3 times on Saturday and Sunday. NO EXCUSES ! Yep, ignoring the scale is NOT a good idea ! I wish I could say I was shocked when I saw the reading on the scale. I wasn't.

From a food perspective, I did ok today. Breakfast was french toast with sugar free syrup. I had a yogurt around noon. Lunch was a pepperoni pizza melt with a chef salad. Afternoon snack was cottage cheese & peaches. Dinner was another meatloaf sandwich and broccoli. Evening snack was a lemon zest cake with whipped cream.

I checked in on my bank account today and I had $7k in my checking ! I don't need all that money sitting there for bills so I moved $2k to my savings. I don't even need the whole $5k in my checking for bills since I'll get paid again soon, but I like the security of having more than enough money in there. My property tax check (about $1161) hasn't cleared yet but there isn't much in the way of bills that will hit my account until mid-month. The big one is always my Chase VISA only because I use that for everything. I have over $1100 in credit card rewards and I need to think about doing something with them instead of letting it sit there. It's like a little hidden savings account for me ! When you don't go to the casino you can actually put money in your savings ! My tax refund will be here soon and in March I'll get my bonus and a (hopefully) a raise, so I'll be able to save even more. After all the years that I struggled to pay the bills, it really feels nice not to have to worry about money. This is why it devastates me so much every time my job is at risk. I'm just not going to find another job that will pay me over $100k per year. So I'm going to just hope and pray that I can keep it for another 5 years. I plan to retire at 67 since I will be eligible for full social security and should have a healthy pension and 401k balance. I'd also be happy just making it to 65 because I would be eligible for Medicare Part A & B even if I don't choose to start collecting Social Security until I'm 67. When they push me out the door I'll have to sit down with a financial planner and see where I stand.