Day 41: Struggling

 

This picture will continue to be the header of my blog until I'm able to establish some better habits. I originally wrote "good habits" but I'm trying to stay away from negativity - so things are not "bad" vs "good". How about good vs better for positivity ! I think this daily reminder is helping as I've been able to start getting things done!

Today is Day 41 and it was 30 degrees when I got up. The forecast high for the day was 51 and we're supposed to be in the 50's for the rest of the week, though our overnight temps are still 30's and 40's. It's safe to say Spring is NOT here!

Breakfast was a 180 calorie cinnamon roll and an 80 calorie yogurt. Late morning I had some Irish Soda Bread. Lunch was a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt and a chef salad.

Work is super slow again but I'm trying to find things to occupy my time. Thankfully, my boss reached out to ask me to take a few things from my colleagues and I got those all done by noon. 

It's been 11 days since Abby passed away. Today Minnie took over her former spot on the end of the couch and snoozed for a couple hours. Perhaps that is a sign she recognizes Abby is gone and not coming back. We've both been trying to figure out our new path and although it is easier each day I don't think I will ever stop missing her. I miss all of my pets that are gone. Animals have a unique ability to give unconditional love.

I'm still struggling when it comes to diet and exercise. I didn't get on the treadmill yesterday even though I was dressed and had my shoes on at noon. I haven't weighed myself recently, but I've probably gained again. The cheeseburgers and chips over the weekend, along with plenty of candy and Irish Soda bread are yet another example of self-sabotage. Oh - and I also bought a 6 pack of chicken teriyaki dumplings Saturday. I have to admit, they were amazingly delicious and not huge calories! I didn't make it to the treadmill during lunch today, so I spent the time cleaning the litter boxes, sweeping up the laundry room floor and putting fresh water in the fountain. I also cut up a head of lettuce for salad and put the trash out. 

Weather was nice today! The sun came out and it was nearly 50 degrees by 1 pm. I can't wait until it's warm enough to shut off the heat and throw open the windows! I really miss the fresh air blowing through the house.