Reality Sets In

 

I've been up and down but I'm not giving up. I might have been close to rock bottom but I held on tight and started the climb out. I can't look back and I can't change the past, but I have full control of the future when it comes to my weight.

Sleep didn't come easily last night and I woke up feeling pretty hopeless. I had made an eye appointment so I took a shower and washed my hair before heading out. I stopped at the post office first and wtf ... got a jury summons for Federal Court in Syracuse. I served in 2016 so I guess it's time again. My mom used to get them all the time and she would literally melt down over it. I think I inherited her social anxiety to some degree. My term runs from 6-6 through 7-4 and I have to call every Thursday starting 6-6 to determine if I have to report the following Monday. It's called "petit jury service", which I have never heard of. If it works the same as grand jury, you're excused once you've been called for a case. When I had grand jury I was called but not selected. I got paid for the day and was dismissed. My eye exam took forever and 2 pairs of glasses cost me over $600. Unless I get a job with vision benefits, I don't see me buying glasses again anytime soon. The good news is my eyes are healthy, my cataract in the left eye is years away from needing attention, and my prescription didn't change much. I used my HSA funds to pay the bill and half of the money was matched by ATT, so I really only paid a little over $300 of my own money. I was able to get the same frames I've had for years, so I was happy about that. I stopped at Walmart on the way home. I didn't need much and half of what I bought I didn't really need this week. I bought Pop Tarts but already had 2 boxes. Oh well, now I have 4 .. lol! I also bought 2 cans of whipped cream and had 2. So now I have 4 of those too. 

I've found some promising jobs online but I need to professionalize my resume and cover letter before I apply to anything. I also need to update my LinkedIn. I'm going to use some online AI tools and see what I can put together.