Another Day 57: Life Goes On

 

Holidays and weekends don't count, so I'm holding at 38 days unemployed. It's hard to believe it's been 8 weeks since my last day with AT&T. Considering I'm getting paid, am I really unemployed ? I guess so. It's going to continue to be a scary place until I have a job and unless the Accenture job comes through, I don't know when that's going to happen. For now, I consider this time off to be an extended vacation. I haven't been unemployed since 1985, so this has been a difficult adjustment. I really thought I'd have a new job by now, but in reality I haven't applied to that many jobs and I'm probably setting my salary expectations too high. I really, really, really want this Accenture job to come through ! I couldn't wait, and sent that follow up email to Kurt today.

I was awake shortly after 7 am and got up just before 8. Once the cats were all fed I settled in to watch some YouTube and enjoy my coffee. Breakfast was a piece of the strawberry cake I bought yesterday. I warmed it in the microwave for 20 seconds and it tasted just baked !

So yesterday's grocery haul included some things I had sworn not to buy: namely candy and ice cream. Well, I only bought one half gallon of ice cream and last time I bought it I got 2. I also limited myself to 2 scoops last night. The goal was one but I felt like the one scoop didn't have much of the "goodies" in it. That's not uncommon when you first dig in, so I will keep trying to stop at 1. I haven't opened the bag of fun size candy bars yet. I was disappointed to see that the bag of Chex Mix is now 13.5 ounces for the same price. They used to be 14.5 ounces and I only bought it because you got 1/2 an ounce more than Gardetto's for the same price. Next time I shop I'm going to look at the Gardetto's bag and see if they are still 14 ounces. If they are, I will switch back. I could also buy the ingredients and make my own Chex Mix. I could also check out some of the other snack mixes on the market OR here's a thought: stop buying them ! I really need to stop. I'm continuing to gain weight and making zero effort to reign in my eating. The 5 pizza crusts in the fridge (and 10 in the freezer) can attest to that. The strawberry cake I bought was a mistake, in that it's not what I was looking for. I like coffee cake that is cinnamon & nut based, so that's what I should have bought. I can't bring myself to just throw the cake away. It's doesn't taste terrible, it's just not what I really wanted so it was a poor choice on my part. 

I had some chip & dip with a diet coke for lunch and contemplated going out to trim weeds. I also resolved to get myself on the treadmill today. My lack of a job and the uncertain future is holding me back, which is ridiculous. Since I'm not working NOW is the time to exercise and get down to business when it comes to weight loss. I've basically wasted the past 2 months. I could have been exercising 3 times a day and eating right and could probably have lost 20 or more pounds by now. Somehow, someway, I need to dig deep and find that drive to succeed again. I have to start somewhere and rebuild my confidence. 

In a not-so-shocking twist .. Biden announced today he is not going to seek re-election ! I'm not sure how to feel about this, as I think Trump had a better chance if he stayed in office. It will be interesting to see who will run in his place. I'm not sure Kamala Harris can beat Trump ... but I feel like it will look bad if they don't let her run in his place. Seems like the Dems are between a rock and a hard place .. which is great ! Also in the news .. the Secret Service finally admitted they had denied Trump's request for additional security on several occasions over the past few years. Not a good look for them !