Another Day 58: Life Goes On

 

Holidays and weekends don't count, so today marks 39 days unemployed. Considering I'm getting paid, am I really unemployed ? I guess so. It's going to continue to be a scary place until I have a job and unless the Accenture job comes through, I don't know when that's going to happen. For now, I consider this time off to be an extended vacation. I haven't been unemployed since 1985, so this has been a difficult adjustment. I really thought I'd have a new job by now, but in reality I haven't applied to that many jobs and I'm probably setting my salary expectations too high. I really, really, really want this Accenture job to come through ! As of noon I hadn't heard back from Kurt. It's possible he was impacted by the Crowdstrike outage and may be still having trouble today.

I was awake before 7 today and got up shortly thereafter. Once the cats were fed and I had breakfast, it was YouTube and Cookie Jam time. I had a Jimmy Dean Delights breakfast sandwich for breakfast and at noon I cooked the last 2 hotdogs. They were so good ! Last night I tried cooking them in the air fryer and I will never cook them any other way ! Last night I cooked them for 10 minutes at 390 degrees, but today they were perfect at 7.5 minutes and the same temp. I don't like to fry them in a pan because the grease makes a mess and cooking them in the oven (which I did Saturday) takes 20 minutes and heats up the whole kitchen. The air fryer is definitely the way to go if you don't have an outdoor grill. Less calories because there is no oil, less time and it doesn't heat up the kitchen.

Sitting here at 12:39 pm the goal for the day is, again, to get on the treadmill. I absolutely have to do this and I absolutely have to get this weight off. I have about 1/4 of the strawberry cake left and I've decided to toss it. It's not that good and I'm mad at myself for #1 buying it and #2 eating it ! I haven't opened the bag of candy bars and I'm going to avoid that as long as is humanly possible. I keep putting exercise and diet off because I want to be all in. This is my problem ! It's all or nothing in my head but in reality it doesn't have to be that way. Have chip and dip and then get on the treadmill. Have ice cream and then get on the treadmill. I have to stop chasing perfection because it is nothing more than an excuse. Just because I'm not 100% compliant with Nutrisystem doesn't mean I get a pass when it comes to exercise. 

Yesterday marked 25 years since the bodies of JFK Jr, his wife and his sister in law were recovered from the wreckage of his plane that crashed outside Martha's Vineyard, MA. Over the years I've often wondered what our political landscape would have looked like had he lived. He had dauntingly large shoes to fill and I'm not sure he was even interested in that. I'm sure the Democratic party would have come calling at some point for a Presidential run and he was so likeable he'd likely have won in a record-breaking landslide. He could have had college age children by now, to ensure the continuation of the Kennedy dynasty. It's so sad and I felt the worst for Caroline Kennedy, who lost her mother, her father and her only sibling. No other member of the Kennedy family has had the political success that I believe JFK Jr could have achieved. I guess it wasn't meant to be and if you believe in Fate, those young lives ended just as they were meant to. This is a hard sell for me, considering they were so young.